.An Ode to Rationality.
.It depresses me to realize and accept the fact that I haven’t fully prepared the draft for the AP presentation this coming week. Yet at the same time, I’m quite happy to believe that I’m not going to be the one to present said presentation. Just like always — I do the work, they present it. It’s just a matter of what I can do and what I tell others to do. It’s sorta cool… yet a little depressingly unfulfilling in a way.
.Anyways, hindi naman ako siguro nag-eemote, diba? Eh, wala akong magagawa — parents ko, tinatanong na sa’kin kung ano ang magiging trabaho ko in ten years time. Parang nagkaroon ako ng epiphany — alam n’yo ‘yun? Realization of great truth? Parang bigla kong naisip — ay, oo nga noh. Ano nga ba? At first, I chose linguistics kasi ‘yun lang naman kaya ko. Hindi naman ako kikita pag nag-Arts ako. So what kung maging Psychologist ako? Che, wala naman akong talent sa logic at ka-eck-eckan. So, in short, Linguistics is my only choice lang talaga. The whole thinking-about-the-future thing sorta surprised me — I’m not usually thinking about the future and all that. But now — ugh. Now I know why my brother got so fidgety and anxious around two years ago before he graduated — the whole course-picking thing really bites people in the ass.
.Wahaha… malapit na ang Quarterly Exams. I still have so much to do — the draft for AP, the presentation for AP, the studying, the passing, the waiting-for-the-grades-to-come-out… GAH. What’s this thing of mass blackness invading the sanity located just a few blocks away from my BRAIN? IT’S DRIVING ME INSANE. SERIOUSLY. Grabe, I’m stressing out like crazy. I’m not showing it, though… after all, baka naman magreklamo ang mga kapitbahay; may baliw sa tabi.
.Hayy… alam niyo… Pinangako ko sa sarili ko na gagawa ako balang araw ng reviewer para sa KAHIT ISANG subject sa school. Geez… why am I writing something as random as this? What’s so great about — ugh, you know what? NEVER MIND. I guess I’ve run out of interesting things to add that I randomly mention certain things that absolutely make no sense whatsoever. Gah, this is so annoying =w= I guess I can say goodbye to rationality and reason, eh? It’ll probably be gone by the time the Quarterly Exams end. JOY.
.That’s all for now. I’m going to drown myself in Phantom of the Opera before it gets too late to even sleep.
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